Sunday, July 17, 2011

whasssupppppp



think i've abandoned ma homiez fo' too long already so i'm backkkk. damn so much has changed. for all the shit that i criticise the army for, i have to admit that the experience thus far has changed me more for the better than the worse. even the shit should be credited into opening my eyes to the existence of such shit which is surely a useful thing in the future. Good job, shit.

The future. It freaks me out. (at this point motion city soundtrack should start playing so go on to youtube and play it yourself you lazy bum). i wanna ord and yet where my life is heading after that is so uncertain. ok not really i'm going uni la but what then? some days the uncertainty is exciting but other days its scary and depressing and staying stuck in time in the army doesnt sound so bad after all. ok, i kid, not to that extent.

we're gonna be 20 next year. thats a zero with a TWO in front. and no teen at the back either to use an excuse for being stupid or dumb or immature or making mistakes. we're growing up, guys. and it scares me. we're not ready. I'M not ready. mentally, spiritually, i'm just not ready yet.

I guess one bright spot is that no one is ever ready to grow up into the unknown and anyone who says that he is is a big fat liar. so i wont be alone in facing the future. and thats reassuring enough.

Posted by Mat Raffles at 12:25 AM