Friday, October 15, 2010

The Big A

I finally got scared shitless today. Which was about time yknow. I've been going through the motion for the sake of it. Three weeks left. Damnit, in primary 6, I would be asleep now, waking up early with no problem, owning classes, going home right after school, read the junior encyclopedia, do some papers with my mum as supervisor, read even more, go to bed. I was almost a total nerd in primary 6. Except for the fact that I played pokemon on the gameboy every chance i had, and by this I REALLY MEAN every chance. When my mum went to the toilet, when I couldn't sleep and i hid under some table with a torchlight to play it, when I was bored of reading, etc. etc.

I need to wake up mannn. Grades are not automatic but I somehow feel like they are, its like I'm treading the very thin line between being confident (for no reason, which is weird) and complacent (even weirderP. And even if they don't come idk, I think I'll be crushed almost like the rugby finals. And so what?

I need to bring myself to care not only about the exams, but the consequences of not doing well. Somehow I can't, which other people think is good and naturally, they wish for it. Well, don't.

Ding

Posted by Mat Raffles at 3:03 AM